I just experienced a calm November with no stress or conflict. It was such a great feeling to be at peace. However, there is always this feeling within me that I’m missing--or missing out on--something. This feeling resurfaced again when I found myself working on tidbits of graphic design: dabbling in some elements to start considering a whole makeover of this blog and creating a new business card for my current full-time gig. In total, I probably spent about 3 hours doing this. As odd as this may sound to some, it was 3 hours of feeling connected to something in my core that brought me joy and left me wanting more. Yes, it appears that my drug of choice is graphic design.
I’ve tried playing music and with a lot of practice I can pull it off, but it’s always technical. If my band mates stray from the song in any way, I’m left hanging as I can’t catch the new groove. I’ve done some art, but it always looks mechanical. However, when I enter into the digital realm, be it photo re-touching, editing digital video, creating music for use in digital video, or starting with a blank slate and ending up with a full blown website, this is where I find fulfillment and contentment. Elements of all of these were incorporated in the work I did when in full-time ministry and freelancing just to keep up my skills when not working helped me keep my sanity.
While I do admit that I’ve been able to exercise some creativity in finding solutions for people seeking to purchase an automobile, it’s not quite the same. It’s part of business and an inherent part of who I am and why I’m able to relate well with most people in a sales capacity. As I ponder thoughts of how my friends may have been right after all and maybe I should be doing what I truly enjoy and feel accomplished at as a full-time gig, my mind immediately turns to the possibility of a future role where I can take my sales experience and complement it with my digital skill set to take a group of people I’ve committed to be successful to the next level.
Yes, creativity has gone and done it again. It’s got me thinking about possibilities. This time though, it’s not a conflict of what to do or where I should do it. No, this time it feels like a dear old friend making himself available to help get me where I want to go and feeling equipped to begin the journey into my next new adventure, which isn’t really new at all--just getting refreshed a bit. Color me excited for things to come!
Are you missing creativity in your life? What is your creative outlet? Is today the day to revisit it?


