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26
Oct 09

Look forward, not backward!

One of the things on my to-do list today is to get all of my books into my new bookcase in my office. I’ve found so many books I didn’t even remember having. I came across several books I bought for my wife that are authored by Joyce Meyer. The one thing about Joyce Meyer is that she can share a thought that if we truly look at our lives in the context of what she shared, we can all have hope and over come our pasts through Christ who gives us strength.

While putting the books into the bookcase, I decided to pop open New Day New You. It’s a 365 day devotion book. I stumbled upon the devotion for October 22nd. It references 1 Corinthians 2:9:

No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.

Joyce begins this devotion by writing:

Perhaps God has been speaking you about some changes in your life and you want them, but you are afraid. I want to encourage you not to be afraid to step out. Even if you make a mistake, it won’t be the end of the world.

Those are words to live by for sure. Some of us go through life so scarred from our last mistake that we are crippled to move forward. The sting still hurts and it causes us to never want to feel that pain ever again. Rather than push forward, we stay stagnant or drift backwards. Our eyes are forward, but we seem to be losing ground to our goals.

Change is a word that I have embraced often. Sometimes because I wanted to, sometimes because it was inevitable and I just had to go with it. When I seek the change and am excited by it, I run full-steam-ahead and sometimes burn myself out before realizing the goal. When change is forced on me, sometimes I respond by resisting it. No matter what we may believe at the time, the reality is that change is a good thing no matter what. We were not created to stay static, nor were we designed to live in the moment of a victory and never pushing for more. Our life is not just one moment in time. Instead, it is s journey consisting of many moments strung together to create a legacy. Our destiny is already determined, but our legacy is what we make it to be. Do we want to be remembered for past failures and shortcomings, or do we want to share in the joy of victories as we grow stronger with each passing day?

What things does God have in store for you? What is he waiting on you to see accomplished? All it takes is making that first step and leaving your fear and hurt behind you. Joyce Meyer concludes the devotion with:

You are not going to be able to everything, but step out in God’s timing into the thing you feel he is leading you into.

You can be assured in the promise from Hebrews 13:5 AMP: “I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not…”

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30
Sep 09

What does the company you keep say about you?

Being in ministry and going through the process of planting a church, I have connected with people that can help me through: sharing wisdom, supporting me in meeting my goals, prayer, guidance, etc. If I shared my contact list with you, it would be obvious who I was.

I mentioned repentance in yesterday’s blog post here. It’s an ongoing process with me and the company I keep is something I feel I need to address. I look to Jesus as an example. In contrast to what others think of Jesus, he was not some lovey-dovey, goodie two-shoes person walking through the streets of Galilee 2,000 years ago. Instead, he was actually considered to be a very dangerous man! So dangerous that he posed a threat to the Jewish establishment. People were appalled at the company he kept. Even his inner circle of twelve consisted of a tax collector named Matthew. He was seen talking and dining with prostitutes & drunkards so often that people witnessing his lifestyle thought he was a sinning glutton and alcoholic (Luke 7:33-34).

Based on the company I keep, people around me in ministry bear witness to the fact that I am blessed with leaders that have invested time in my life to help me pursue the vision God has given me to see a new ministry take shape here in Sacramento, CA. However, what do the people of Sacramento see? Do they see a ministry leader that associates mainly with Christians and others in ministry, or do they see someone that has compassion and love for his fellow human regardless of his/her faith? Do my neighbors see a revolutionary of grace or the safety of a well-positioned minister to Christians?

I’ve spent a lot of time chasing the church and making it my idol. I’ve been wrapped up in believing that I am only as good as my church--that without formal ministry, I am nothing or will be labeled a failure. I’ve sacrificed time in my business (my only source of income as I don’t take a salary from the church), time with my family, and time from those in need of Christ’s love in my community. In reality, ministry is really about people and fulfilling The Greatest Commandment (Matthew 22:36-40)--we are called to love others above ourselves, not gain respect from our work in ministry.

Know that most of the people in my life are not of a Protestant Christian faith. Living most of my life as an atheist, you can imagine that I didn’t keep many Christian friends, nor witnessed any family members come to faith in Christ through my words. I do associate with people that spend time in bars or have been known to devote their lives to making lots of money. However, I feel that my focus has been on building new relationships that will help me move forward in ministry ahead of relationships that will foster the love of Christ in unknowing, anonymous ways. Too often I’ve brought attention to myself in the name of Christ’s Church rather than in the name of Christ period. I am repenting for this and moving forward in a more-balanced way regardless of what happens with my role in formal ministry. I’m looking at making a difference in the world anonymously so that people see Christ, not me and right now I can only do it one person at a time. I cannot let my natural instincts as an introvert lead my thought process.

How would people in the world view you based on the company you keep? It’s an important question that I hope you spend a moment pondering today.

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29
Sep 09

What time is it?

Well for me, the answer lies within the first words Jesus preached from Matthew 4:17:

From that time on Jesus began to preach, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near.”

The essence of Christian faith is grace. We learn in Ephesians 2:8, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.” With grace comes the forgiveness of Jesus for any and all things from our past. We start with a clean slate.

Repentance tends to be an evil word to those outside of the faith. It is misunderstood. I know when I was living as an atheist, I would hear people talk about repenting and seeking forgiveness, but in my mind there was nothing I felt I needed to be forgiven for. Now as a follower of Christ, there are many things I do and think about that I need to seek forgiveness for. However, repentance isn’t just about being forgiven. It goes much deeper than that. When one repents it must be a turning away from that which is wrong and then turning towards that which is right. We then must continue to deal with moving towards what is right. That is the difficult part.

When I first came to faith I made a commitment to God. In that commitment I asked for forgiveness and as a result I have never been made to feel guilty for anything from my past. All of my hurt and pain and emptiness was replaced with the grace and love of Jesus. That’s the great part! However, that’s been Jesus’ part of the commitment. He has remained true to that. My part of the commitment hasn’t been so true. I didn’t merely ask for forgiveness--instead, I made a commitment to repent.

In what others may see as a nasty word, I find beauty. When I feel the burden to turn away from doing things that I should not do, I know there is someone there to take those burdens away from me and to help guide me in the right direction. God did not create me in order to watch me fail. He reunited with me and called me into his embrace so that I could know true life. That life is filled with ups-and-downs, joy and pain, gain and loss. However, this new life I’ve been given has meaning and purpose and I need to always direct my eyes towards God and remember what he first called me to do--repent for the kingdom of heaven is near.

Repentance can seem like a scary thing. It may require us to turn away from something like causing physical harm to another human being, or it can be something as simple as being judgmental or speaking negatively about someone unjustly. No matter how big or small, turning away from something we know we shouldn’t do and honoring our commitment to then focus on doing only what we know is right is something that God requires from us. It’s our part of the commitment. If we truly believe we are in a relationship with God through Jesus, then we all know that there are two parts to any relationship.

Have you honored your part of your relationship with God lately? Not the part of doing what you feel he has called you to do or taking when he has extended his hand to you? I mean the part of your relationship where Jesus asks you to repent and come closer towards him and you look into your heart and seek to turn away from the things he wants you to.

Maybe you have felt the pain of carrying around a huge weight on your shoulders and you have not known how to be removed from it. It may be such a part of you now that you can’t imagine living a day without it being heavy on your heart. As difficult as it may be to imagine, won’t you just ask Jesus to come into your life and remove it? Nothing else has worked so far, because knowing Jesus is the only way. Know that God didn’t create you to be a table for heavy burdens. He created you to rise above all things and equipped you with the strength to get through it and to know joy through his spirit residing within you. Asking him into your heart and seeking new life may seem like a stretch of the imagination at first thought, but you’ll find that once that thought enters your mind, you won’t be able to forget about it. It eventually feels like the right thing to do. Go with it. Talk to God. Lift up your burdens to him. Tell him what you’ve been carrying around and ask him to forgive you of it and take away the pain. He will do it. In fact, he already knows about it. It’s not new news to him. However, he has not sat in judgment of you, nor will he cause you to feel guilty. He just wants you to come to know him and seek to live a new life walking together with him.

For all that Christ has done in my life, it is so easy to talk about the good things. However, it’s not so easy to talk about the bad things. As the one that has brought some bad things into my relationship with God, it is time for me to shun those things and do my best not to look to doing them again. Today is the day that I take time with God and repent from doing some things that I need to stop doing. It may cause some distance between me and some others, but it’s a small price to pay to honor my commitment to the Lord. It isn’t about guilt--it’s about God’s kindness that leads me to this place of repentance. Lord, I ask that you give me the strength to confess those things that I want to turn away from and that you give me the strength to never go back them. May it be so for all those that come to you on this day seeking your love and kindness and turning their backs on those things that need to be left in the past.

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5
Aug 09

It’s more than we are required to do…

Being that I am bi-vocational (receiving income from my work in business rather than as a pastor) I get a chance to be involved in the corporate world and the Christian world. It’s one of the things I enjoy because it keeps me from becoming “religious.” Maybe I should say that I usually enjoy it. Today was an exception.

I found some charges on my Bank of America corporate bank account that I disputed with the bank. My wife had initiated the dialog with the bank yesterday, but they didn’t honor what they said they would do, leaving us with hundreds of dollars in charges we were not in agreement with. So, I talked to a customer service manager by phone today. The person that agreed to rescind the charges was off work today, so I had to talk to someone else. Rather than just take care of it, I got the following response:

manager: I understand what you’re saying. If agreed to this, that is her call. However, it’s more than we are required to do.

me: I understand it’s more than you are required to do. All I’m asking is that you reverse the charges today so I can resolve some other pending issues. Then, you or I can talk to tomorrow and confirm that she authorized it.

manager: The charge is legitimate so I cannot help you. It’s more than I am required to do.

me: So, even though you have the authorization to make this right, you won’t do it since it’s more than you are required to do?

manager: That is correct.

Okay, so let’s get something cleared up. I’m not complaining that the manager on duty today wouldn’t resolve this matter for me. I’m just disappointed in his attitude towards the whole thing. I’ve been with Bank of America for over 10 years and had personal accounts with them for over 20 years. To have the matter handled the way it was, beginning with the error on the first manager’s part seemed really ridiculous.

It’s not like I did anything wrong here. As a long-time customer of Bank of America, my hope was that they would appreciate my business more than they obviously do. In my business, I would never, ever have anyone with this kind of attitude in management. Sure, there are company policies and guidelines, but even if an employee makes a mistake, it is my business to make sure the client’s position is considered and appropriate action is taken. Sometimes, situations lend themselves to doing more than is required.

I watched The Charlie Rose Show on Monday and Jason Kilar, CEO of Hulu was the guest. I have only used hulu twice and had difficulty trying to watch shows on my laptop screen (I’m used to the 42″ LCD tv in my family room with surround sound) so I don’t have much knowledge/experience with hulu. However, after watching Jason Kilar I am now a huge fan of hulu! Not necessarily for how it meets my needs, but for the business model they have undertaken and their humble attitude in all of their success so far. Kilar mentioned how he uses twitter. It’s his new google. He said that he uses search.twitter.com about 12 times a day and scans for every mention of the keyword “hulu” being tweeted. One specific response he discussed was that people will tweet about typos they find on hulu. Kilar will see this tweet within the hour it was originally posted and then immediately get the info to his CTO (chief technical officer) who will make sure it’s corrected. In real-time, about less than 60 minutes from the time it is noticed by the general public until it is fixed. The amazing thing about this is that this is the CEO of hulu doing this, not some hourly employee. Knowing the power of social media and how so much is dependent upon word of mouth these days, Jason Kilar gets it and I applaud him for it. Bank of America, on the other hand, obviously does not. As we say on twitter: #fail BofA!

I’m reminded of the story in Mark 2 of the Bible about some people that did more than was required:

1A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. 2So many gathered that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them. 3Some men came, bringing to him a paralytic, carried by four of them. 4Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on. 5When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, “Son, your sins are forgiven.”

Just getting the paralyzed man to Jesus’ meeting would have been more than was required since he couldn’t walk on his own. There were so many there that wanted to be healed that it’s understandable that they could not make it through the crowds. However, doing more than required they made their way to the roof and lowered their paralytic friend down to Jesus. Bold…creative…ingenious…loving…more than required.

If Jason Kilar did what was required, we would all be forced to watch tv based on programming schedules. Hulu allows us the freedom to watch shows when we want, where we want. Kilar, whose background includes amazon.com, google and Microsoft was very comfortable in his career--a huge success already in most people’s eyes. However, he chose to do more than was required so that multitudes of us could enjoy more personal freedoms when it comes to media. Sometimes being a well-known company affords them some level of being comfortable, but it is the company willing to do more than is required that will be at the forefront with loyal client bases. From a Christian perspective, how can we be faithful like the friends of the paralytic in Mark 2 and do more than is required? With the power of the internet and social media, our actions will speak louder and reach more people than ever before. Please don’t blow your opportunities.

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30
Jun 09

Disappointments

I don’t think I will ever get over how things that may seem negative can be turned into positives. I’ve experienced some things that have been very disappointing recently. It’s always when I put my faith in others, but luckily I am not measured by their actions and closed mindedness. People can do their best to make themselves look better by taking things out of context and slinging them back at me, but I don’t care. For me, it is all about the test of time. Who will still be standing because of the truth in their words and actions? It’s not about what others think, but more about how true I can stay to who I am and what I am supposed to do.

In the end, no matter what people say, often they are selfish at heart and when I can no longer contribute to something they lash out or just distance themselves. It feels like there was never any respect for my contribution--no acknowledgment of thanks--just disappointment in how they handle themselves.

I’ve been asked several times by people if I have been disappointed at the small numbers of people that have attended our public preview services for Revolution Church Sacramento. Since the preview services were more for our benefit in helping to get unified in vision, participate in something like One Prayer that showed unity within the body of Christ, and letting people know we were more than just a conversation in someone’s living room, I am not disappointed at all. Others may have been disappointed, but their perspective would be out of context of what I expected from our time together in June. For me, the truly disappointing thing has been when others have been there for me when I was giving of my time and talents to help them, but left me cold when I wasn’t there for them. I guess I’m more saddened than disappointed, but disappointment is a by-product of putting our faith in others based on present circumstances when it is inevitable that some will just end up showing themselves to be fair weather friends.

As I was thinking about this post, I decided to look for some quotes on the topic of disappointment. It turns out they were just what I needed and I hope that they help you have a new perspective on disappointing times and situations as well:

  • “The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way.” --Robert Kiyosaki
  • “Disappointment to a noble soul is what cold water is to burning metal; it strengthens, tempers, intensifies, but never destroys it.” --Eliza Tabor
  • “We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope.” --Martin Luther King, Jr.
  • “People look at you and me to see what they are supposed to be. And, if we don’t disappoint them, maybe, just maybe, they won’t disappoint us.” --Walt Disney
  • “One’s best success comes after their greatest disappointments.” --Henry Ward Beecher

Through it all, we will never please everybody and trying to do so will lead not just to disappointment, but also to frustration and failure. We should always hope for the best in others, but know that there will be times when we let our expectations get in the way. In the end, disappointments are a fact of life and as the quotes above indicate, can be used to make us better and stronger. After going through some disappointments recently, I’m greatly anticipating some success as I position myself with where and whom God calls me.

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