Having lived as an atheist during the first 37 years of my life, I have to admit that I had a burning desire to always be right. Even when I was wrong, I somehow had to find a way to prove myself correct in some aspect. I always had the last word. Almost 6 years into my life of faith in Christ, I take a different perspective. I don’t have to be right anymore. Specifically, I don’t care if others think I am wrong if I know I’m right. I can walk away and let them think I’m wrong. I don’t have to win the argument, nor prove that I’m smarter than someone else. However, this Scripture is something I struggle with:
“If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him. If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, ‘I repent,’ forgive him.” --Luke 17:3-4 NIV
You see, when I read certain passages in the Bible it seems to tell me that there are times when I should point out the wrongdoing of others. However, it’s hard to do so without coming across as more-righteous than another and that’s a place I really don’t want to go to anymore.
With that said, I must admit that there are times when people do something out of ignorance. It’s prejudicial, racist, condescending or even blasphemous and I want to reach out and tell them how wrong it is, but 99.9% of the time I just let it go. Unfortunately with me, what happens is that I tend to hold the words or actions of another against them. I won’t be fake and act like I’m okay, but I’ll just choose to avoid the situation and not make a big deal. When I find people say something, yet have their actions reveal something else it’s hurtful and difficult for me to accept in silence.
People aren’t always who they say they are and usually it isn’t revealed in what they say, but instead in what they do. I want to call them out on it. I feel like I have Biblical ammunition to support my case. In the end, I just offer grace and hope that they’ll learn that they are transparent and at some point their words will be revealed as meaningless. I guess I hope that this reaction will be the conviction they need to correct themselves. I just believe that God is there to take care of these things and rather than make a bad situation worse, I’ll let God deal with it in other ways.
My new position finds me feeling weak at times. I come home and kick myself for not standing up and saying something some times. Whether it’s right or wrong to take the high road, I do my best to keep the integrity of my faith and beliefs intact. Some days it’s hard though.
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